The wind has wrenched all hands away
and ripped and torn the sail
but the sea grows somewhat calmer
as storms ply against the hull

Still I hope that time has something left

to show that I was here
before sinking into oceans
of blurred forgotten years

for my intention is a stranger moment
apart from the world we share
and all of our enchanted musings
fell lost between the here
and the there


The lights upon the farthest plain
ascending with the storms
where children and dreamers separate
and a gulf within us forms

And I hope when they replay the verse
our tongues fell deep to speak
the words are less confusing
and the rhythm not so weak


But intention is a stranger moment
apart from the world we share
and all our hopes of happiness
survive between the here
and the there


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I lost sight of the raging waters
below the surface where i lay
fractures slip like ghosting fish
below my fingertips
I watched the days in proud procession
upon the icy pools above
and seen the stars like distant fires
that follow each day through


cold dawn in the world that i built
cold water and chiseled stone
maybe time will one day find me
maybe then I'll get back home
cold dusk in a world that I made
my memories are all I know
so if you're searching, I'm still waiting
where is time to bring me home

I drew regret with a dull blue pencil
deep beneath the danger mark
it left me here below the ocean
below the wreckage of my heart
and now I breathe this cold dead water
no time to give what others steal
no song of life to make things better
no warmth in love for me to feel

Cold dawn
waiting for the night to come

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Hear the voice of the unremembered heart
hear the silence between each word
black and white divided grays that cut between us
filled with broken shards of promised days

I'm standing far ahead

always looking backwards
I'm standing far behind
with eyes fixed on tomorrow

Breathe in deep, and open your heart again
the fire burns where the embers fall
so love, in spite of the pain you feel
for the lives we live - follow after all

Where are the artists and the prophets?

lost below the wheels of this machine...
because money drives the vanity of human culture
but emotion fuels our hope and feeds our dreams

They dance upon the water
they dance upon the fire
they dance upon the stoney ground
with palms turned to the sky


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he cast you to this isolation
without the spark that made life real
nothing lost below the mourning
nothing moves and nothing feels

your distant eyes filled up with longing
who steals the dignity within?
black sails fade from the horizon
and take away your innocence

it doesn't it have to end this way
he filled your head with make-believe
no time to cry so wake up
Ariadne
it doesn't it have to be this way
you define what you believe
take hold of your destiny
remember ...what's inside

so cautiously you walk the dawning
searching through deserted dreams
he used your love, he used your body
and then dis-garded everything

your wanting eyes filled up with silence
to find the dignity within
to free the world beyond regretting
beyond the grays of innocence

it doesn't have to end this way
he filled your head with make-believe
no time to cry so wake up
Ariadne
it doesn't have to be this way
now you define what you believe
take hold of your destiny
remember... what's inside

step inside & feel division
words make the delusion real
truth is not alive in knowledge
but dead within the lies we deal
Theseus will break your heart
Theseus will break your heart

and what your life has failed to grant you
live to claim, and claim to live
so many paths lead to tomorrow
what love has lost can you forgive?

it doesn't have to end this way
he filled your head with make-believe
no time to cry so wake up
Ariadne
it doesn't have to be this way
now you define what you believe
take hold of your destiny
remember what's inside...


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(rise Akhetaten)
I made the monument by his hand
a drifting sun in a foreign land
ATEN-RA, ANKH-IS-RA

IS-RA, IS-RA, ISRAEL

Angel of the One
his face has been denied
from all the inscriptions
but not from the sky
ATEN-RA, ANKH-IS-RA
IS-RA, IS-RA, ISRAEL

Who is God?

His name defies belief
for no One less wrought in Heresy?
ATEN-RA, ANKH-IS-RA
IS-RA, IS-RA, ISRAEL
ATEN-RA, ANKH-IS-RA
IS-RA, IS RA, ISRAEL?
ATEN-RA, ANKH-IS-RA
IS-RA, IS RA, ISRAEL?


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dreams lie shattered
shards endure
now the wraiths her mind possess

like shells of precious flowers
dried out and hung with love
making eyes into frozen temples
that stale you in her gaze
so pale
so cold
so beautiful
if not clinically insane


now the decades pass unanswered
and she prays with silent lips
sometimes she talks to angels
when she has her little fits
but you must believe in something -
sometimes that something's real
sometimes our motivations
are tied up in what we feel


so elegant her poetry
falls from her pallid lips
she flows like icy roadways
when the wheels start to slip
and if her course lays waste to this
i pray a way to your design
her minions shall dance your dreaming eyes
and sing her fragile rhymes


now the decades pass unanswered
and she prays with silent lips
sometimes she talks to angels
when she has her little fits
but you must believe in something -
sometime that something's real
sometimes our motivations
are tied up in what we feel


Ave Maria
just give us something
but it's lost on deafened ears
Ave Maria
just give us something
to ears that cannot hear

now the decades pass unanswered
and she prays with silent lips

sometimes she talks to angels
when she has her little fits
but you must believe in something -
sometime that something's real
sometimes our motivations
are tied up in what we feel

Ave Maria
just give us something

but it's lost on deafened ears
Ave Maria
she's saying something
to ears that cannot hear

Ave Maria
just give us something
but it's lost on deafened ears
Ave Maria

if god is speaking
she's the only one who hears.



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I have made life and experience from the imaginations of youth
I have slept a million nights below the darkness of silence
I am the incarnation of your delusions,
or your insights...
I am the voice of warning
I am the thread which ties life to reality
I am your guardian
I am the wishfire...

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Stand behind me
and above me
with voices plaguing

my deepest thoughts
And the visions
they keep coming
I keep hearing
my angel fall

in a dream
without a future
without a breath

to take away
and my resolve;
a higher being
with wings of ash
and eyes of fire

Don't blame me, I'm just the messenger
I don't know what this message means
Don't blame me, I'm just the messenger

I'm just the messenger don't blame me

As things will happen in this life
with no resolution,
the duality in men
requires constitution.
for the shame of hatred spent
might endure your sorrow
if your higher self is shackled

by your binary soul

creation's flaw;
the angels fell
without his grace
to light our path
I am the mirror
I am the destiny
I am the herald

who points the way

The wounds I bear
have left me humbled
once a child of divinity,
but if my breathing
days be numbered,
will I bring this victory?


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Roll out of bed, look in the mirror
and wonder who you are-
another year has come and gone

today is your birthday
but it might be...
the last day of your life
so what will you do if tomorrow- its all gone

You won't be young forever
there's only a fraction to the sum
you won't be young forever
nor will anyone

so...

Look at your life, who do you want to be- before you die?
Look at your life, and what do you want to do?
Look at your life, who do you want to be before you die
Look at your life, you haven't got forever (it all comes back to you)

hmmmmmmm

and tell me what really matters
is it the money & the fame?
or how many people might
eventually know your name?

but maybe you touch one life
and the world becomes a better place to be
maybe you give their dreams
another day, another chance to be free...

You won't be young forever
there's only a fraction to the sum
you won't be young forever
nor will anyone

so...

Look at your life, who do you want to be- before you die?
Look at your life, and what do you want to do?
Look at your life, who do you want to be before you die
Look at your life, it all comes back to you


You won't be young forever
there's only a fraction to the sum
you won't be young forever
nor will anyone


Look at your life, who do you want to be- before you die?
Look at your life, and what do you want to do?
Look at your life, who do you want to be before you die
Look at your life, it all comes back to you

Look at your life, who do you want to be- before you die?
Look at your life, and what do you want to do?
Look at your life, who do you want to be before you die
Look at your life, you haven't got forever (it all comes back to you)

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Black heart and a hammer
Come and sing to me
Black heart and a hammer

Come and dance for me
Standing where she lay
Dancing on her grave
There's no life to save
Oh, they killed 'em yesterday

All this makes no sense

It dies but it comes again
I just want to win
And never say your name again

Black heart and a hammer
Come and break for me
Black heart and a hammer

Come and die for me
Standing where she lay
Dancing on her grave
There's no life to save
I took it yesterday

All this makes no sense

It dies but it comes again
I just want to win
And never say your name again



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Drag down
Feel this
Fatal heartbeat
So deep

Like the pound-pound-pounding
Industry
Cry out
I heard you
Slowly waking
Drowned out

and slowly making back the writhing line

They cut the bloodline in the center
And injected this hated strain
They cut the bloodline
They left it wanting
Feeding on this youth remains


(And She Goes)
Give me the Light
Give me your Love
Give me your Innocence
Give me the Blood
Give me your Life

Give me your Love
Give me your Innocence
Give me the Blood
Give me the Blood
Give me the Blood

Fallout

That they left here from the time before
Fall down
This throb-throb-throbbing core
Reach out
But the words are so empty
Fall back

And the edges fade to black

They cut the bloodline in the center
And injected this hated strain
They cut the bloodline
They left it wanting
Feeding on this youth remains


(But We Go)
Give me the Light
Give me your Love
Give me your Innocence
Give me the Blood
Give me your Life

Give me your Love
Give me your Innocence
Give me the Blood
Give me the Blood
Give me the Blood

Give me the Light

Give me your Love
Give me your Innocence
Give me the Blood
Give me your Life
Give me your Love
Give me your Innocence

Give me the Blood
Give me the Blood
Give me the Blood


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(Ka):
God is silent, only eyes from where I stand
Sundays eclipse the monumental scale of man
Life leaves us parent-less in a world I do not
love
There's no causality for what I'm thinking

of...

(Guardian Angel):
And I am the face you see within the mirror
And I am the hand that holds the fist away
And I am the dream forgotten in the morning
And I am.... I am.....

(Ba):
We are the faith of your tomorrows

let us breathe, let us see, let us be...
We are your prayers engulfed in sorrow
let us breathe, let us see, let us be... let us
be...

(Akh):
Oh God I only need to see,
to share this light,
to make this hope,

to make it me...

(Ka):
Life may leave us, stretched across the soul
we buried
Sundays moving slower when the loneliness
sets in
and if our children die, before we reach our
own demise,

then life is blacker still, blacker than the
blackest fire.

(Guardian Angel):
And I am the face you see within the mirror
And I am the hand that holds the fist away
And I am the dream forgotten in the morning
And I am.... I am.....

(Ba):

We are the faith of your tomorrows
let us breathe, let us see, let us be...
We are your prayers engulfed in sorrow
let us breathe, let us see, let us be... let us
be...

(Akh):
Oh God I only need to see,
to share this light,

to make this hope,
to make it me...

(all)
let us breathe, let us see, let us be... let us
be...


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If you're very very quiet
And you do not make a sound
I'll share a little secret
That seems a bit profound
Each thought that is imagined

Gains a life its own
And drifts into reality
Looking for its home

Some people call it Karma
Some people call it fate
Some people call it kindness
Others call it hate
Some people use it wisely

Some people sell it cheap
Some people call it happiness
but others call it grief

Tragedy from tragedy
A lover's kiss (that's simple)
Religion falls behind the walls
where paradise remains
Does suffering suggest the cause

of all our little questions
The answer was not coming soon s
he paused for reflection



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Watching backwards as life like pictures
Stinging thoughts, born with phantoms
We danced above a world forgotten
Moments cherished... even now
A train-wrecked heart loves fairy tales

Singing from a gaping wound
However time has left unsettled
My memories play out of tune

You can't unmake
a cold mistake
You can't undo

the hearts you break
You can't erase
the poet's fate
Not even if you try

And she had Audrey Hepburn's smile
With deeper sadder eyes

The only thing she said
No one hears Cassandra cry
Because the earth is standing still
And the truth becomes a lie
A choice profound is bittersweet
No one hears Cassandra cry


A heartfelt sorrow I believe
Offered this for passion's crime
A crippled satellite trapped in orbit
My memories play out of time

You can't unmake

a cold mistake
You can't undo
the hearts you break
You can't erase
the poet's fate
Not even if you try...


The listless price of my descension
Where emptiness has pulled me down
Cascading from my divagation
Below the frozen winter skies
Pythonic sadness unreleased
As serpents rigid in cold

Waiting for the warmth of Sunday
Before the cruelty of growing old

Are you listening?
Are you listening?
Are you listening now?
Like Orpheus with hope entangled

Your path was mapped about your feet
Leading backwards into forgiveness
Or forward to a fools retreat



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These mortal thoughts
They bind me up
They shackle me
And drag me down

I can't escape
I'm cut too deep
Left hanging here,
In misery

Chains of hate
Chains of affection

Chains that want you and
Chains of rejection
Chains immortal
Chains that die
Chains that shackle you and
Chains that bind


I feel the tug
That pulls me in
This chain of memories
This passion bends
I can't escape
I'm cut too deep

Left hanging here,
In misery

Chains of hate
Chains of affection
Chains that want you and
Chains of rejection

Chains immortal
Chains that die
Chains that shackle you and
Chains that bind

Chains of hate
Chains of affection

Chains that want to and
Chains of rejection
Chains immortal
Chains that die
Chains that shackle you and
Chains that bind

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The day is withering
Broken by the weight of time

All shadows cast
Grow longer
Till they smother light
and leave no trace
or evidence
Of the fiery life that has fallen silent,

till new moon resurrection recalls the phoenix
Leave this a monument
of dreams dreamt
Of love shared
Of gods challenged
and victory over mortal chains

Snatched away
In the attempt

All the little children
All dressed in black
With their darkened eyes
And holy artifacts

Mamas watch your babies
Keep them safe and sound
Don't let them play in graveyards
Don't let them find this out

You may be sorry
You may be sorry


peculiarities speaking
Arising from their mouths
It must be the devil
Making these horrid sounds
Speak no evil, baby
Your daddy told you twice

Don't be some sort of freak
Lost lonely in the night

You may be sorry
You may be sorry

Pallid cheeks and perfumed skin

This midnight love's corrosion
Clandestine fingers wander
Symbiotic fed explosion
comes harrowing cold to these
Another line to feed
like fish within the net

Like babies caught in sleep
Caught in sleep

[spoken]
Break the stem
Spare the petals this answer
Let me fall quickly
Beautiful still

And when they inter me
Let rain be my mourning
Let thunder cry my demise
And death lay her kiss
Gently on my paling lips

You may be sorry


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Languid waves of desperation
fall before the rains
A vanguard to approaching war

is borne upon the sea
The icy breath of cyclones bent
on waging our destruction
Drills hard against the hearts of heroes
called here to defend

I see storms on the horizon

I see the tempest at the gates
I see storms on the horizon,
and a citadel alone
Clinging brave, defying fate

And I will stand here at the gates to face the onslaught fighting
Without surrender or defeat

With Troy besieged by tyrants' greed - (tyranny)
In Hector's memory, God willing
We shall save this victory
Without surrender or defeat

Sudden silence - I realize
breaking teardrops in the rain

With every breathing moment
the pillars are sustained
And waking hands attached to nothing
tightly clutching close
Each sleeping vision speaks unheard
and heaven only knows (exactly why)


Paris' arrow landed true
Paris' arrow landed true
Paris' arrow landed true
Down upon your heel...

This Troy...

she will not fall again
This Troy...
she will not fall!


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Where the light burns a little brighter
Where the shadows dance on the walls
Where holy men hide their holy secrets
The sacredness of life is sold
Standing under gold and silver
I see the procession rise

Seated in his thrown of power
He proceeds to close his eyes

They try but the stone has broken
They try but the ceiling falls
They try but there's no momentum
They try but don't we all


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I am the Angel
you are the hands that grab me
I am forgotten
and you are alone

justification-
perfect stimulation
make me a treasure...
make me a gun
I am the mountain
that watches the valley
pretending the answer
lies under my thumb
I am your secret

that makes you feel stronger
that makes you act colder
when I'm around
I am the Angel
you are the hatred
that has sipped my blood
and broken my wing
I am forgotten
but you are forgiven

still I long for the sleep
that never comes to me
I am empty...
I am cold...
I am cold...

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Mother of motion, the eyes can't capture time,
falling emotion, the blind now lead the blind,
we commit indiscretions, and omit our sins from sight,
in a world of intangibles, too many things seem right

No hand to scribe, the sinking sickness I have seen,
no face to judge until you've been the monster I have been,

to hunger is noble, where beauty is silent sleep,
my hunger is noble, but my pain is driven deep.

Your cruelty and consequence cannot eliminate this relevance
Your selfishness, your hatefulness cannot take away my
immanence
Your cruelty and consequence cannot eliminate this relevance
Your selfishness, your hatefulness cannot take away my
innocence from me


Mother of motion, the eyes can't capture time,
falling emotion, the blind now lead the blind,
to hunger is noble, where beauty is silent sleep,
my hunger is noble, but my pain is driven deep.



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Something falls on the horizon
I see a silhouette disappear
And in the distance, I heard him cry
As he fell deeper, into this

(laughing)

Dull is life with a poets vice
Pretty, pretty girls and a lifetime of lies
Making something of another turn
Down an empty corridor
Smoking guns and apologies

Never given what you need
Scrap the simple games you play
And take them to the floor

Take back, take back your memory
Hitting hard, muscles bent in agony
Playing out your personal tragedy

Take back, take back the dancefloor

What's it for?
When life is shallow and the living's fast
Making love for things that'll never last
Forget your heart, forget your past
And live inside the moment

When tv's ugly and the sentiments cheap
And dreams are living outside of sleep
You can trust your heart to make you weak
And break down your fear of safety

Take back, take back your memory
Hitting hard, muscles bent in agony

Playing out your personal tragedy
Take back, take back the dancefloor

Project your heart, project your soul
Use your body, take control
(repeat 3x)


When you'd make it crisp, much sharper to see
Like the spaces hidden in-between
The candy faces are all I need
To make my heartbeat faster
Laying claim in a crowded room
To the sounds of thumping buzzcut zoo

Ask forgiveness if you fail
But take the floor for me

Take back, take back your memory
Hitting hard, muscles bent in agony
Playing out your personal tragedy
Take back, take back the dancefloor

(repeat)

Project your heart, project your soul
Use your body, take control
(repeat 3x)

(it's basically disco)



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she cries, children often do
When they're cold, and hungry too,

Come closer, look deeply in her eyes
So delicate, quite unlike her smile

Life clinging backwards,
In the fall of dread confusion,
Still this silence gnaws upon your fingertips,
cold yielding breath, for instant isolation,
Far more sinister than the price of doubt,

Yet you remain,

Still you remain,

And she says:
Pray for daylight,
Pray for morning,
Pray for an end to our deception... (2x)

Life clinging backwards,
In the fall of dread confusion,
Still this silence gnaws upon your fingertips,

cold yielding breath, for instant isolation,
Far more sinister than the price of doubt,

Yet you remain,
Still you remain,

And she says:
Pray for daylight,
Pray for morning,
Pray for an end to our deception...

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by vigils light this night to keep
watching eyes fall over her
moments lost, fragments unseen
but I will still be here

They say
this cause is lost
and she will not return to me
They say
that she is gone
and this is just a shell unliving...

And through the dark of the morning
she fades, but I will not leave here
fight back the demons around us
love lives, And I will defend her

by dancing light alone in the darkness
my eyes play tricks with the shadows
prayers for miracles seem to pass unheard
but I am with her still

They say this cause is lost
and she will not return to me
They say that she is gone
and this is just a shell unliving...

And through the dark of the morning
she fades, but I will not leave here
fight back the demons around us
love lives, And I will defend her

I will defend her......

There is no fact, that cannot be challenged
no course of fate, we cannot repair -the
means to an end is in the beginning
strength to endure comes out of despair

Where there is love, there is life
and where there is life there is hope
and in hope we find the sight to see
the essence of divinity

They say
this cause is lost
and she will not return to me
They say
that she is gone
and this is just a shell unliving...

And through the dark of the morning
she fades, but I will not leave here
fight back the demons around us
love lives, And I will defend her
and through each moment believing
she knows, that I will not leave her
one life held fast to another (eternity)
love lives, And I will defend her.

I will defend her......


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and if you find your Illium
and if you build your troy
I hope you feel the pain I felt
twice upon your sword

Aeneas on your noble hands
my life shall stain with blood
let Dido's curse rest in the mind
a shade begot by love

Carthage shall this grudge recall
upon your 7 hills
and nothing less than misery
will remind you who you killed

And though with hate I suffer now
the truth is deeper still
for I love you with my dying breath
and know I always will...
beyond this world into the next
I know I always will...


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"Don't ask me to surrender"
Her voice fell tired and spent

"My hopes and dreams, a silent heart
I carry here within"

her outstretched wings, left tattered
A sail aged with rust
"a breath in time, that's yours and mine...
it belongs to only us"


And I will write her name and cast it to the sky
silhouettes recede into a mother's tearful eyes
a host of angels clamor to her side
a light dissolves to kiss the wind
release the dragonfly


See the rose within the field of white
She's searching for the grail
but the rain descends to snatch the light
from distant dying suns
a faint resounding in the night
calls angels wings to beat

singing silent lip-sewn songs
but the distance is too deep ..

And I will write her name and cast it to the sky
silhouettes recede into a mother's tearful eyes
a host of angels clamor to her side
a night dissolved to kiss the wind

release the dragonfly

And I will write her name and cast it to the sky
as precious moments will slip away in time
angels fall from grace, and sometimes heroes die
but tonight, my love, ascend the gates,
release the dragonfly


"sometimes angels fall, but love will never die
tonight my soul is something more" -
calls the dragonfly.


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Hold tight to the path you're walking
don't let your resolve decline
keep your eye on the prize
and your mind on your goals
and never fall behind


Dream yourself
Dream yourself awake
Dream yourself
Dream yourself awake
and never look down

Remember the life you're living
is created in your soul

and what is real
should never feel
alien to the world

Dream yourself
Dream yourself awake
Dream yourself
Dream yourself awake

and never look down

Don't waste your tears on sorrow
Weighing in from your past
everyone has a broken wish
fallen beyond their grasp

Dream yourself
Dream yourself awake

Dream yourself
Dream yourself awake
and never look down

Dream yourself
Dream yourself awake
Dream yourself
Dream yourself

awake


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I don't understand why this is happening

Despite all of it all
I still believe

Maybe its all in my head
I just need a quiet place where I can think


Despite of it all
I still believe


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Go go east
Go go east
Go
Too many the questions
Where answers are few
The path driving tangled

Loves destiny's truth
With hunger unwilling
A passage to choose--
The trees growing ripe
With forbidden fruit?
Dance in the garden?

Sing with the snakes?
Inviting free will,
To repeat his mistakes?
With hunger unwilling
What will you do??? -
The trees are ripe

With forbidden fruit?
Go go east of Eden
Rising in the eastern sky
The sun god dances light divine
Rising in the eastern sky
The western banks below his eye

Stop
With hunger unwilling
A passage to choose??? -
The trees are ripe
With forbidden fruit?


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"I walk alone at night,
raindrops and streetlights
reflecting flashes
across the asphalt

in a second's time, I might refrain from breathing
with her hand in mine, something is breaking faster
through a blackened sky, I see a world unravel
I look into her eyes to see the end
in a second's time, the walls swim cold electric
with a tearful smile, she whispers my undoing
in the hollow night, I find no trace of comfort
I turn just in time to see the end

I walk the edge

standing on the velvet edge
looking backwards in the rain
I wonder just how many times
I've watched you walk away
all that fascination bleeds -
is a piece of infinity
in frustration still believing
what I know will never be

blurry eyes growing weak
fading with the light of time
piercing nothing to redeem
the emptiness with lies
pride has raped the sorrowed heart
and stolen what I love,
though the cut is digging still
how much deeper it could go...

Why did you come here,
just to break my heart again?
I walk the edge ------
Why did you come here,
just to sever my last remaining thread -
Why did you come here
just to watch me fall again?
I walk the edge ------
Why did you come here....?
I walk the edge..."

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talking back from frozen moments
the aching words I never spoke
alone now in this cold abstraction
the sounds of yesterday transpose
and every pause within my conscience
I sadly offer up to you
I have to go before I falter
before my longing skews the truth

and as I push against the waves
know my heart is broken too
and though I travel far away
part of me is still with you

And if it was my choice to make
Elissa- I would stay with you
but tomorrow isn't mine to give
and there's something I must do
And if it was my life to live
Elissa- I would never leave
I made a promise long ago
and now you must believe-
however far i travel...
I can only love you more...
I can only love you more...

I see your shadow like a ghost
silent and away
apologies make emptiness
the things I want to say
and this guilt it must be but mine alone
fearing the distant glow
broken to a choice unmade
though I want you, though I need you (by my side...)

and as I push against the waves
know my heart is broken too
and though I travel far away
part of me is still with you

And if it was my choice to make
Elissa- I would stay with you
but tomorrow isn't mine to give
and there's something yet to do
And if it was my life to live
Elissa- I would never leave
I made a promise long ago
and now you must believe-
that whatever course life takes...
I can only love you more...
I can only love you more...


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A focused voice reigns down like a firestorm

you know what you must do
venture down into the underworld to prove that love is true

Eurydice don't follow me
the world has grown so cold
Eurydice don't follow me
my love I'm losing hold


and if my voice won't move the Ferrymen
on my affections alone i'll cross
then stare into the eyes of death eternal
no matter what the cost

Eurydice don't follow me

the world has grown so cold
Eurydice don't follow me
my love I'm losing hold

sacrifices and the light
that leads me here through this night
as vision breaks the world grows dim

persephone argue my case to him
i'll take his word no looking back
the bridge we cross i will not look
and her footsteps i do not hear
is she far behind me or standing near?

Eurydice don't follow me

the world has grown so cold
Eurydice don't follow me
my love I'm losing hold

Eurydice don't follow me
now that my dreams turn black
Eurydice don't follow me

there'll be no looking back


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Sorrow sings

her kisses in silence
and adjusts the blinds to keep the light
from mocking everything I feel
She dances slowly
a silhouette upon the curtains
but her eyes seem to cry
only empty tears
I beg for comfort with inadequate verse
it meant so much to me... and so little to her

and I am sinking into a mountain of self pity
why can't I simply disregard all the things I feel?

"where is my angel when I need him most?"
"tell me now where did he go?"



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the trials you now are facing
they are not greater than your will
for there is nothing under heaven
you cannot overcome
see the door that lies before you
and know- this too shall pass
the confrontation of your fears
in strength drawn from the past
where the silent voices whisper
find the course- that is your own
and however great the obstacle
you will never be alone
for I have watched the path of angels
and I have heard the heavens roar
There is strife within the tempest
but calm in the eye of the storm.

in fragments of an instant
the chaos has returned
and all that was left to sentiment (emptiness)
beneath the banner burned
and as that voice was slow receded
into echoes, memory
my doubts were re-ignited
and fear awakened from its sleep

I believe in what I fight for
and I have paid for it with pain
i am here because my contributions
may help turn this fate away
and all who stood by and did nothing
who are they to Criticize?
the sacrifices of others-
our blood has bought their lives...

This is the moment of truth
at the point of no return-
place faith in your convictions
when boundaries begin to blur

There is no love untouched by hate
no unity without discord
there is no courage without fear
there is no peace without a war
there is no wisdom without regret
no admiration without scorn
there is strife within the tempest-
but calm in the eye of the storm...

The pages of our history
are written by the hand
with eyes and ears and prejudice
too far removed- to understand
and so the heroes of the ages past
are stripped of honesty- and love
to make them seem less noble
and hide what we can become

this is the moment of truth
at the point of no return
place faith in your convictions
as the boundaries begin to blur

There is no love untouched by hate
no unity without discord
there is no courage without fear
there is no peace without a war
there is no wisdom without regret
no admiration without scorn
there is strife within the tempest-
and calm in the eye of the storm...

There is no love untouched by hatred
no unity without discord
there is no courage without fear
there is no peace without a war
there is no wisdom without regret
no admiration without scorn
there is strife within the tempest-
but calm in the eye of the storm...

if you find the courage within you
to face the path ahead
it matters not the outcome
if what you will gain instead
is a heart deepened in the knowing
that experience carves the soul
and the very thing that empties you
shall surely make you whole
where the silent voices whisper
find the course that is your own
and however great the obstacle
you will never be alone
for I have watched the path of angels
and I have heard the heavens roar
there is strife within the tempest
but calm in the eye of the storm

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Sleeping moments giving birth
To a world of my own invention
Doubt is cast, and what's real
Mixes with imagination

My imagination
Each vision, each word
Like a message in a bottle
The unreal has given birth
To the titans of my inner battles
Angel, burning away

Cutting against the heartless unforgiven
Anger, blacken my dream
A phoenix in flame, returning in redemption
Angel, burning away
Cutting against the heartless unforgiven
Anger, blacken my dream

I can see this angel is me
And I am in flames
The wind is breaking hard
Flowing with the void of fire
The light it burns
Eyes glow, holding my soul

The fallen horde is hunting seraph
Wisdom, Prometheus knows
A torch is but a tool for heroes
We stand to face the hatred
Amassing on our borders

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You've played this hand, refused to stand
has dignity dissolved?
How far away I heard you say
In empathy devolved-
You cast your heart two worlds apart
and lost sight of your soul
But the sun will rise with cleaner eyes
That you pretend to know...

I stood here waiting for so long
I stood here praying I was wrong.

You said that we could last forever,
forever and a day.
You said that we could last forever,
if only I would stay-
I know, within your soul, the light
fights trough the rain
But if you promise me forever,
I know that it's in vain.

If silence slips from sacred lips
Shall the world un-become.
The tears of saints in blood you paint
A cowards word is none
And with no voice you forfeit choice
and crucify your thoughts
But see a face in tortured grace
Whose eyes belonged to God

I stood here waiting for so long
I stood here praying I was wrong.

You said that we could last forever, forever and a day.
You said that we could last forever, if only I would stay-
I know, within your soul, the light fights trough the rain
but now a promise of forever, won't take away the pain.

Sangrael,
sangrael
A lovers cup before a wishing well
Sangrael,
sangrael
Where all who thirst shall drink
Sangrael,
sangrael
From heavens height to the depths of hell
Sangrael,
sangrael
All who thirst shall drink

I stood here waiting for so long
I stood here praying I was wrong.

You said that we could last forever, forever and a day.
You said that we could last forever, if only I would stay-
I know, within your soul, the light fights trough the rain
But if you promise me forever, I know that it's in vain.

You said that we could last forever, forever and a day.
You said that we could last forever, if only I would stay-
I know, within your soul, the light fights through the rain
but now a promise of forever, won't take away the pain.

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"Words scribbled on the underside of an old envelope
becoming everything inside.
Ink spilled on paper, but in a deeper sense,
several sentences blurred by tears
represented more sentiment,
more that was meaningful and real,
than the years that led to this crossroads.

I heard the door close-
not slamming, but slinking shut
in an unfortunate and unhappy desire to be undetected,
as if secrecy could lesson the pain.

Sometimes our lives descend, insnared
as storms upon the soul
and rains may strike dividing
to sever what was whole
but though your limbs feel torn and twisted
and your memories turn cold
take heart, for I am with you still
and will catch you should you fall
Eyes to Heaven
Lost and searching for the truth
The words to mend your broken heart
can only come from you
Eyes to Heaven
building secrets from your pain
a virtue lost in innocence
is lost here all the same

a beautiful dreamer locked in reticence
in a tower of your soul
what lies so deep and undisturbed
fears torment in the world
lightning flashes warning
to whispers in the rain
the fire climbing upwards
your fortress lies in flame
just pray you do the right thing
Eyes to Heaven
Lost and searching for the truth
The words to mend your broken heart
can only come from you
Eyes to Heaven
building secrets from your pain
in prayers to end the suffering
heard by a soldier's saint.
Eyes to Heaven
Lost and searching for the truth
I am lost, and I'm falling

Just pray you do the right thing"

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falling together in the cold grass holding hands
on the hill side watching stars descend.
forever seems like just an empty promise
we spent so long ago

but we were younger then.

each sour word
sounds so absurd
but lingers
in the air
while happiness
in an ashen dress
fades into

the years
each lonely hour
my heart has slept
has drifted back
to me
a splintered dream
of awful things
that now
have come to be


She said Go
I don't want you any more
She said Go
i don't need you now, my dearest
She said Go
i don't love you anymore
She said Go
and I heard the angels cry


for us...

simple words that simply disappear
while silence has replaced the sound of laughter
and in the twilight memories shimmer in a
breath of hesitation
but it only lasts a moment before its gone

but I don't Believe her.



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Call the card
left to lay

just a path
against our future days
lay direction
read the face
understand our crooked ways

smile at this
directed plain
her eyes are cracking

in their wrinkled gaze
the light is dancing
on the tabletop
restlessness that just won't stop

now planted deeply
suggesting fate
eating sweet naivet
was it mirror

or window glass?
he subtle residue
beyond your grasp

Hang the man
by his legs let us hang the man


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Your eyes
they often lie
and leave me feeling
misunderstood
our tragedy

plays out like a symphony
a breath and a whisper
are your clues
inside we shake
because we're afraid
but we're certainly not afraid of you
these dreams instead
who like a blanket
has smothered me but still left me warm


I don't need sympathy
or your apologies
why don't you understand?
the face you see
well it belongs to me
and I'm doing the best I can...

just to make you smile
just to make you smile

again...

Faith, we're acting on courage alone
what will they do
when that's all through?
dance in the dark
sleeve pinned with a heart
just to let you know
that we're in pain


I don't want sympathy
or your apologies
why don't you understand?
the face you see
well it belongs to me
and I'm doing the best I can...

just to make you smile
just to make you smile

again...

every now and then you have to see
that the wall we've built has landed on me
every now and then why don't we pretend
that things will come together in the end
every now and then just open your eyes
does every part of everything have to be right
every now and then- so that after a while

I might get through and make you smile



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Shades of feelings my heart denies

bathing in shadows hidden in the eyes of lies
my glowing future now these embers burn
uncanny restlessness- but ask me what I've
learned...

prey insect visions swarm about my head
each haunted thought, and each prying wedge

slice ripping pieces and shredding pages of life
if this is real- well it feels like hell! yes it feels
like Hell!

gods and angels and devils smile
stare into our crying eyes
fire in anger and hate beguile

but look into your heart tonight.

We disregard the cold pedestrian grey
where level playing fields weren't meant for us
to play
as riddled failings salvation turns away
if this is real- well it feels like hell! yes it feels

like Hell!

gods and angels and devils smile
look into our crying eyes
fire in anger and hate beguile
but look into your heart tonight.


gods and angels and devils smile
stare into our crying eyes
fire in anger and hate beguile
but look into your heart tonight.


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The sounds of yesterday still echo in my head
Distant conflicts unresolved
We were young once,
and in love

Nothing was more real...
more real to feel.

Fools for lovers,
children are
in petty circumstance
Like razors seen

more clearly now
Watching from the outside
looking down
I feel so helpless

I see angels trapped beneath the ice
And strangers in my bed at night

Cloudy skies to cover up
the feelings buried in the dark
Helen, i think you understand
The night is silent in your hands
I give it everything I have
And when its gone

There's nothing left but me

sadness whispers her condolences
For the greatest tragedy of all is love lost
But the greatest virtue belongs to those
who will give everything
to love again...

It is a test

I don't think its fair to blame each other
For the happiness we sought but didn't find
Gibran's words i heard in angel's eyes
Too young to understand
But I pause as we grow between the lines

And if the walls of our communion fall to nothingness
How wrong the dreamers would be
But I won't accept it,
I won't give up
World be damned,
for love is hard

And this time...
This time...
I'm not running away

I see angels trapped beneath the ice
And strangers in my bed at night
Cloudy skies to cover up

the feelings buried in the dark
Helen, i think you understand
The night is silent in your hands
I give it everything I have
And when its gone
There's nothing left


I see angels trapped beneath the ice
And strangers in my bed at night
Cloudy skies to cover up
the feelings buried in the dark
Helen, i think you understand
The night is silent in your hands

I give it everything I have
And when its gone
There's nothing left but me

There is always hope,
and the strongest and the bravest
will always keep it close to them

For if you surrender hope,
then love was right to leave you

I see angels trapped beneath the ice
And strangers in my bed at night
Cloudy skies to cover up
the feelings buried in the dark

Helen, i think you understand
The night is silent in your hands
I give it everything I have
And when its gone
There's nothing left

I see angels trapped beneath the ice

And strangers in my bed at night
Cloudy skies to cover up
the feelings buried in the dark
Helen, i think you understand
The night is silent in your hands
I give it everything I have

And when its gone
There's nothing left but me



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Usually I get real pissed off and wonder if anyone's really listening to me...

Bring em back on the dead feathers
We once left for the falling birds
Bring them back all of the others
Someone fed them some holy words

I stare rigid and stony
At the hand that holds the sky
write out, spare me the money
That bleeds out of your lies

Someone took a gun
Now I shot tomorrow

Someone took a fall
I think I killed tomorrow
Someone took a gun
Now I shot tomorrow
Someone took a fall
I think I killed tomorrow


Throw them back on the dead corpses
We once held close in our arms
Throw them back, back where they started
We danced naked for the stars

I stare rigid and stony

And the hand that holds the sky
write out, spare me some money
That bleeds out of these lies

Someone took a gun
Now I shot tomorrow
Someone took a fall

I think I killed tomorrow
Someone took a gun
Now I shot tomorrow
Someone took a fall
I think I killed tomorrow


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You're lying awake
the room is different the walls dissolve
replaced by sky
horizon blackening twilight

beckoning
as the clouds are stretching wide
little holes
that light is clawing to get through
but hope is shifting
with the shadows
that are drifting on the ceiling as you move

are you awake???

sour thoughts are dancing now
all around your head
shoulders shake... chattering teeth
the cold wind rips the covers from
your bed
the apparition-
the eyes are digging
heart is pounding
eyelids will not close

your voice is failing
the screams derailing
and she stands so near to you

and nothing is sweeter than the songs you're
seeing
begging for the colder hand she hides
floating
flowing

her soul is hunting
glimmer
shimmer
white lights breaking
and fluid cries
she's reaching
screeching
imploring
seething

and the haunting
hurting
spilling
no one knows
a kiss-like smile that leaves you beguiled
fading darkness and the whisper of a ghost



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Shifting inside patterns
the division multiples
echoing the mystery
mimicking the slide

sound searching slowly
below the flaming web
moving with his eyes like fire
with his jackal-head
(with his jackal-head)

Give it all to birth
give it all to life
take it all for granted

until we turn and die
She answers with her staff
silence from her breath
silhouettes of temples falling
visions of certain death
hand lift it from the pocket
the prophet falls to red
the sacrifice is offered
to his jackal-head

(to his jackal-head)

He who defiles the tomb of the pharaoh
shall surely find swift death
He who defiles the womb of the
pharaoh's queen
shall surely find swift death


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before i fade into a dream
I will leave these kisses 3
one for love that dances in fairy light,
one for the beautiful child enthroned,
and one for the angel whose eyes are my vision,
whose wings though tattered shall carry me home...

carry me home...

carry me home...

Is there something I missed along the way?
Is there something I missed?
the first kiss.
Is there something I missed along the way?
Is there something I missed?
the second kiss.
Is there something I missed along the way?
Is there something I missed?
the third kiss...


I only ask you remember me
in a waking thought, returned from sleep...
before I fade into a dream
I will leave these...
kisses 3


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Somewhere in the darkness I stand
Watching and waiting again
Somewhere in the darkness she cries

And I hear the silence die
the silence

Chorus:
Her lips are cold like death
and she steals away my last breath
as i reach into her soul and coldly

let her go I let her
(her) lips are cold like death
and she steals away my last breath
as i reach into her soul and coldly let her go
I let her go

(repeat verse & chorus)


Now I feel it moving to her
different faces going still
down and back with all this fight
till nothing else matters tonight

Dance back

and glance back to
with all this... here
you have to let me know

Cut whole
cut tight
tragic faces

different bite
send a shockwave
home
gripping closer
gripping go
gripping gold



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Leave me alone- I'm a freak
leave me alone- make it easy for yourself

everywhere I go they all stare
I don't understand why they care
they stare at me all in black
and when I turn they stare at my back
all these things can't,
all these things don't...
let me go.
Leave me alone- I'm a freak
leave me alone- make it easy for yourself

everywhere I go they all stare
I don't understand why they care
and I don't want to be part of your world
and I don't want to see the things you see
can't you understand how I feel?
can't you let me be?

Leave, leave me alone
Leave, leave me alone

Leave, leave me alone
Leave, leave me alone



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Can you hear the breath of the observer
Can you hear the quanta calling back?
The arguments of motivation
Implore my distant muse to act
Sentiment spent on emotions
Derived from our eternal spark

All beyond our comprehension
Watching protons in the dark

All the love and all the hatred
Split from our desire to be
All the love and all the hatred
Leading to hostilities

All the saints and all the prophets
All the secrets that you keep
Exist with one intriguing question
Tell me dearest - who are we?

Can you hear the gears of evolution
Grinding for divinity

Can you hear the voices of creation
And the science sprawling from the seas
Sentiment spent on emotions
Derived from our eternal spark
All beyond our comprehension
Watching protons in the dark


All the love and all the hatred
Lovers searching for the seed
That piece of existential knowing
That gives tomorrow wings to dream
All the broken hearted angels
Living in the ether seams

All the love and all the hatred
Tell me dearest - who are we?

can you hear the cat within the box
can you hear electrons moving free
watching something, watching nothing
in stasis somewhere in-between

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Scented pain and separation
defies the physics and the form
that life must to exist consume and be reborn

why is this strange attraction
a call to arms my destiny?
what choice or course of action?
will you leave a path for me?

Love laced with tragedy
a sense of agony
why can't i feel love as in a fairy tale?
my heart is growing pale

and now I've lost this... love

Systematically paralyzed from the soul out towards the eyes
what i feel i have no traction to hold or realize
sinking into motivation
i do not trust the things i've seen
and now these lost and found sensations want to devour me.

Love laced with tragedy
a sense of agony

why can't i feel love as in a fairy tale?
my heart is growing pale
and now I've lost this...

Love laced with tragedy
a sense of agony
why can't i feel love as in a fairy tale?
my heart is growing pale
and now I've lost this...love

into profanity
my heart is suffering
why can't i feel love as in a fairy tale?
my world is growing stale
and now I've lost this...love

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I don't understand how you've done
these things to me
I can not comprehend your lack
of loyalty

For you i would have shaken down the
heavens from the sky

But it seems my love was stronger than
this love of yours that died

Did you think it wouldn't hurt?
Did you think I wouldn't feel
when the world came falling down?
or maybe you didn't think at all
and that's why I feel what I feel now
Did you think I wouldn't fall?

Did you think I wouldn't cry?
Did you think I wouldn't beg
you to stay?
One of these days you're gonna realize
just what you've thrown away

Now I lie here in this empty bed
and all I think about is you
and I wonder if you miss me now

and if your bed is empty too

(bridge)

Marilyn my bitterness
I've fallen to a stranger nightmare
Marilyn, oh Marilyn
I cannot... find my way / break away

I'll absorb this agony

I'll carry all this pain
I'll wipe away this emptiness
I'll purify this stain
my wings will fold around me now
for once a one was two
and my memory is a monument
that will always stand for you

(bridge)


(chorus)

Now must I go away?


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slipping between us, the ghost & the mourning
prayers spent finding, a reason to stay
painful and aching, the balance is breaking
with so many words, I don't know what to say....


our planets break orbit like paper and water
delicate dancing on the edge of her lips
something unsettled, and something remembered
something forgiven, keeps silent with-in
and she turns to me with tears in her eyes
as if she doesn't see the tempest inside
and our hearts are beating, but no-one is breathing
a small thing I think, so close to the end

The clock is ticking, time is escaping- I know I must be standing on my own
and something sacred, it could be dying - I know, and I stare with headlights now approaching
blankets of sadness, bound up and cover, happiness lost, I must have buried here
inside I'm reaching, inside i'm pleading, I can't be losing everything...
that I remember...

oh, Memorare
oh, Memorare


Kisses left longing, somewhere behind us
asking for comfort, like cats in-between
and this new regretting, how foolish the choices
that once seemed so meaningful, sturdy, & sane.
our seconds of silence, last half of forever-
searching for glimpses that lovers embraced
how close and how distant, we stand to each other
knowing that nothing, can ever be replaced

The clock is ticking, time is escaping- I know I must be standing on my edge
and something sacred, moments reflecting - I know, and I stare with headlights now approaching
blankets of sadness, bound up and cover, happiness lost, I must have buried here
inside I'm reaching, inside i'm pleading, I can't be losing everything...
that I remember...

oh, Memorare
oh, Memorare

The clock is ticking, time is escaping- I know I must be standing on my edge
and something sacred, moments reflecting - I know, and I stare with headlights now approaching
blankets of sadness, bound up and cover, happiness lost, I must have buried here
inside I'm reaching, inside i'm pleading, I can't be losing everything...
that I remember...


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Hide the window watching
give hands that push the faces back
shiver in the alleys
and dying in the cold
little hands and little faces
what are you running from?
they're creeping on your satin sheets
and dancing in your nightmare


Watching at the window
the ledge which we provide
there's someone up above me
there's someone scratching softly
little monsters in the chimney
all black and stained with soot
come creeping to my bedroom
and lead me here to sleep


dancing in your darkness
dancing in your fear
forgetting all your hidden monsters
shedding all your tears

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I never wrote you a love song
somehow words could not express what I needed to say.
and so I never wrote you a love song
and now its much, much too late 'cause you've gone away

But I will build this monument
to remember all the love we once had

and I'll close my eyes and make it how it used to be
I swear I never stopped loving you with everything I am
and it hurts so much to think you stopped loving me
you stopped loving me...

So I wish I'd had written you a love song
and somehow you understood what it feels to be me
because the Angel loves the sprite forever
and does it unconditionally


But I will build this monument
to remember all the love we once had
and I'll close my eyes and make it how it used to be
I swear I never stopped loving you with everything I am
and it hurts so much to think you stopped loving me
you stopped loving me...

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This room is screaming emptiness
silence breaks the air
it leaves me lying on the floor
it leaves me dying there


crawling through the trenches
you stand behind each door
blood & sweat & muddy water
up against the crashing shore

Take my hand, it's my world
understand we'll make it real
play with me in my world

all of this is my world

black fire rising higher
it breaks across the line
there's hell to pay
and we'll pay all day
because the fire's mine

The source is moving closer
I can taste the water now

I feel the heavens shaking
as angels come dropping down

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I find you, lying fetal, knees pulled beneath

your chin, alluring bite sings empty promises,
the entropy has pulled you in, your heart
pounds, your breathing is labored, foolish
things we do for fun, the world outside caving
inward, now what have you done? what have
you done?

No life, No love, No dreams, No reason to remain,
No eyes, No vision, No pain, No, No Nothing, No

mind, No thought, No sex, No awe to feel, No
heart, No Nothing, No, No, No Nothing

fingers numb, a hand is reaching, asking, begging
for a friend, your mouth is dry sting cotton frothing,
spiral staircase towards the end, chest heaves and
you stop breathing, numeric punch keys 911, bad
chemistry, organic weakness, now what have you
done? what have you done?


the vortex brings you down
the vortex brings you in

No life, No love, No dreams, No reason to remain,
No eyes, No vision, No pain, No, No Nothing, No
mind, No thought, No sex, No awe to feel, No
heart, No Nothing, No, No, No Nothing

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n this fading realm of silent dreams
All falls quiet in front of me
I have to think, I must believe
That this is only sleep

As the day has tread into the night
And memory is painted white
A kiss will carry you away
And find us another place

Still I want again to hold your hand
A moment more to understand
How much it means, these little things
To savor one more smile

But in the silence nothing stirs
Not a rising breath to reassure
So I hang my head and hold you close
For this is only sleep

And that's the way I watch the sky
With a simple prayer to sail her by
I have to think, I must believe
That this is only sleep

Only sleep, only sleep
Only sleep, only sleep

If morning comes and all is quiet
A liftetime dances in my mind
But I have to think, I must believe
That this is only sleep,

And that's the way I watch the sky
With a simple prayer to sail her by
I have to think, I must believe
That this is only sleep

Only sleep, only sleep
Only sleep, only sleep

And that's the way I watch the sky
With a simple prayer to sail her by
I have to think, I must believe
That this is only sleep

I have to think, I must believe
That this is only sleep
Only sleep...

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The doubt that madness breeds
feeds this eternity
perhaps the promises were not intended
to endure.

The scars that life has carved
fell deepest on your heart
and the strength to overcome
has left you waiting here.

But though the phantoms of this place
want to steal away your grace
I'll sleep beside you through the cold
I will not leave you here

And in this silence I can hear
all the fury and the fear
but I promise you my love
I will not leave you here
For I will bury you
Where they bury me

But the emptiness is filled
and the hatred reconciled

with a daily struggle
to forget.
Beyond frustration and contempt
is the pain of heaven spent
by those ignorant and cold;
at your expense.

I see, I see, I see we move with the water
I feel, I feel, I feel this darkness receding

I see, I see, I see we flow like the ocean
I feel, I feel, Oh God I don't think I'm breathing

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It's getting difficult
each moment here alone
and Its getting dark outside...
and stranger here without you

But I see a firefly
glowing in the summer sky
like bright confetti
burning in the night

How do you do it
you make me feel this way
How do you do it
all these games we play
How do you do it
how can you say the things you say
How do you do it
It breaks my heart- every day.... again & again

I don't think you know that I believe in you
I don't think you understand how much I love you still
And I don't think you realize, that you are perfect in my eyes
I don't think you know that I believe.... In you

Its getting harder
everyday like yesterday
And tomorrow feels unreachable
a thousand years away
But I see a firefly
swimming in the air tonight
like bright confetti
dancing in my mind...

How do you do it
you make me feel this way
How do you do it
all these games we play
How do you do it
how can you say the things you say
How do you do it
It breaks my heart- every day.... again & again

I don't think you know that I believe in you
I don't think you understand how much I love you still
And I don't think you realize, that you are perfect in my eyes
I don't think you know that I believe.... In you

I spiral into circles,
and all of this for you
so tell me how to find you now
and tell me what to do...

How do you do it
you make me feel this way
How do you do it
all these games we play
How do you do it
how can you say the things you say
How do you do it
It breaks my heart- every day.... again & again

I don't think you know that I believe in you
I don't think you understand how much I love you still
And I don't think you realize, that you are perfect in my eyes
I don't think you know that I believe.... In you


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Circe's getting angry

All she's wanting touch
A little bit of hunger
Satisfaction, doesn't ask for much

She wants to feel intensity
heat watered it down
below to soft deliverance

this heartbeat throbs and pounds

I look around
What do I see?
Another finger pointing at me
All the words they testify
It has to be

Pornography

I look around
What do I see?
Another finger pointing at me
All the words they testify
It has to be

Pornography

Welcome to my lair
Said the spider to the fly
Let me bring you ecstasy
Baby, baby, let me try
To rip these coy reminders

From the smoothest plane
And dive deep inside you
To taste the sweetest rain

I look around
What do I see?
Another finger pointing at me

All the words they testify
It has to be
Pornography

I look around
What do I see?
Another finger pointing at me

All the words they testify
It has to be
Pornography


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Your windows closes
I am crucified
there shall be no more mockery
of the gifts of the gods
no more comparisons
no more distortions

my heart is heavy as stone
I am Prometheus
all courses I am aware of from here
oh you, frail of heart
I am not without pity
take heed,
one final nail
unnamed / undriven
This Nail Shall Represent Hope



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I see you watching
looking back at me

these hellish eyes
they are not mine
I see the blood and saliva
dripping from your tongue
did the angel fall?
when was this monster born?

Why do I sit here
staring at this face?

these wings of mine
they have burned away!
these wings of mine
they have burned

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The hand creates
and chiseled stone
rises from beneath the striking
hidden here below the fracture
the beautiful is corporal
the beautiful is real

I write these dreams
to make this world
something more
than hate and greed
I cast a vision
to change the tides
to give this world
what I have seen

find the face within the stone

The Cyphered dreams
of love enduring
no winds shall come
to move this stone...

for here I plant
my gift to you
a monument
within the mind
the stone is breathing
the heart is beating
and my soul is present
in every word...
Galatea lives
and she will love you
while angels comfort-
should you fall...


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this beautiful saint is bleeding, fall poi-
son words as arrows fly, while distant
thoughts intrude like poetry, some
apprehension... and some regret.

why can't it be like it used to be?
why can't it be like it was?


here i am thinking about you- whenever
i close my eyes I'm dreaming of you.
And if i have to live my life without
you forever, i can close my eyes and
dream of you.

life can be so cruel- take away these
regrets

a shiny insect, just a plaything? have

you ever heard the butterfly cry?
would you sacrifice beauty for the
adrenaline? and would he hate you if he
died?

why can't it be like it used to be?
why can't it be like it was?

here i am thinking about you- whenever
i close my eyes I'm dreaming of you.

And if i have to live my life without
you forever, i can close my eyes and
dream of you.


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striking back for the last
heart attack
first you tip the scale
then they tip it back
this escalating trend
will never end
if they take from you
then you take from them


with less concern
for what is fair
to an unconsidered
blame you bear
this escalating trend
will never end,
if they take from you...
you take from them again


waking up from a dream into another day
never taking to heart all of the words they say
it's so hard to believe if you never see
that the truth is split on the in-between
waking up from your dream into another day
never taking to heart all of the words they say
it's so hard to believe because the truth is this:
what hatred breeds you must resist


Who was the first
and who was the last
did you count yourself
or omit the past
this basic concept
begins again
when your actions flow
from the hate within?


I don't understand
why do you try
to make hatred and intolerance seem justified
I don't understand your prejudice and lies
tear down your ignorance open your eyes

if the heart is rich
then what you think you are
in your core beliefs

should not become a sword
this basic concept
is where it ends...
if you close your heart
then you begin again

I don't understand
why do you try
to make hatred and intolerance seem justified

I don't understand your prejudice and lies
tear down your ignorance open your eyes

waking from your dream state
waking to the truth


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I've seen the terrible hand of struggle
and felt the pain the hubris brings
I have tasted the wisdom of divinity
and the horror of its sting

And though they tell you i am lost
and their words report my death is come

the fates have left me breathing still
very much alive

And though my mind is cut by battles
fought so long ago
I return victorious
I am coming home
And if the paths that I have followed
have tread against the flow

there is no need for sorrow
I am coming home

For the distance I have traveled
upon an ocean of despair
have led me back into your arms once more
an answer to a little prayer

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who knows what kind of reality the soul occupies,
and where it goes when the body ceases to function?
it has been my experience that all things follow patterns
miracles happen through the consistency of nature
I choose to believe that this same principle carries on beyond this reality that life is unending,
but ever changing...


I can feel you here, I can feel you here, I can feel you here, inside


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Rolling back towards the continent

instrumental forces die
save excitement for line behavior
signal shifting to enter flight

my back is burning
in the heat of the atmosphere
my engine roars
and the throttle cries
I'm now pulling on my navigation

bringing me down out of the sky

I've seen the face
It seems they've always been here
ten thousand years tonight
copy Houston, request location
signal over... Satellite

The madness creeping
with system failure

the image scatters
and the comlink fades
the red planet below me hungry
the red planet below me waits

(bridge)

(chorus)

(The Satellite Explodes)


Transmission Over.

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Rewind - I only want to listen to you sleep

Do you dream of places close to me?
I don't know how to make this right
I never thought I'd ever breathe so tight
Confusing, the issues underneath
I don't know how to find this place
locked in a box inside a cage far away,

Singing songs for rainy days
And I want to tell you
But words so clumsy are not my friends
They starve these thoughts when they begin
And I still need you to know
But my lips are tightly holding back

The sentiment inside is lying trapped
Higher, higher than the skies above
And deeper than the cells within
I love you more than these
And I love you more than they
Three splinters hide below this shell

Where yesterday provided me this hell
And left me, lifeless, empty
And you're asking for more than I can give
But it takes so much air for us to live
Completely, I understate my haunted dreams
I really don't want to sleep just yet -

I think about this... as I lie in bed
Let me forget, the color of my death
I know it's not fair to live this way
Still I've said about as much as I can say
And I would, take it all back if I could...


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Stranger the darkness a hint of perfume
Rising from your lips towards the window
The sunlight is twisting lines in my eyes
Leaving me far too dizzy, to see

What am I supposed to do?

When I feel nothing, but I want to?
What am I supposed to say?
No one ever listens, anyway

I want to forgive, and I want to forget
But I can't seem to break out of this, yet
As I'm haunted by heartache and visions of things

That widens, the gulf, between us

What am I supposed to do?
When I feel nothing, but I want to?
What am I supposed to say?
No one ever listens, anyway


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cover your ears
disguise the sound

change your course
but don't turn around
the voice you hear will drag you in,
it will swallow you, don't let her in,
cover your ears
the hurt will end

but you mustn't break
and you mustn't bend
don't look back
it's all the same
you can't go back to that stupid game

the siren song


when you give up
and when you give in
you'll dash your heart against the rocks

close your heart,
close your eyes

before you fall to all these lies
it doesn't matter,
it will never change
this hated element still remains.
it still remains

cover your ears

disguise the sound
change your course
but don't turn around
the voice you hear will drag you in,
it will swallow you, don't let her in,
cover your ears

the hurt will end
but you mustn't break
and you mustn't bend
don't look back
it's all the same
you can't go back to that stupid game


the siren song

don't look back
you've got to be strong
you cannot listen to the siren's song

the siren song



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Life detaches
much less loved
a taste familiar
but watered down
and each day passes
into the next
like television
flickering unseen.

I breathe
but I don't often think about it
anymore
its become a habit
those embers fragment
that fire was
just a fracture
in the ice.

Do you hear me?
Can you hear me?
Do you hear a voice from my side?
sleepwalking


and poetry
fills an empty room
with science broken
and confused
and my desire...
becomes a pacifier
I need to feel
alive & awake.

Do you hear me?
Can you hear me?
Do you hear a voice from my side?
sleepwalking

something aging
in the water
in the damage
to my soul
the wishing fire
is still alive
and I think his heartbeat
will not die
how can I give
anymore of my life
away...

Do you hear me?
Can you hear me?
Do you hear a voice from my side?
sleepwalking



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and so it happens.
my thoughts grow meaningless and forgotten
just the colors of a faded dream
left out in this rain to bleed.
Life gets confusing
prayers draw darkened in the course of my life
and I know that just to ask the questions
it takes courage & resolve-

So you don't have to answer me- if you don't want to
and you don't have to hold me close, to calm my fears
it all becomes so meaningless, if theres no love here
a heart left to this Solus... disappears... I disappear

It happens to me
my doubts are climbing for a better view
nothing I could ever hide from you
you know my heart and my mind... (but you still seem so blind)
and then each action
What is the measure of a perfect soul
Its something I could never really know
as I reach out hoping you'll be there (this time)

So you don't have to answer me- if you don't want to
and you don't have to hold me close, just to calm my fears
it all becomes so meaningless, if theres no love here
a heart left to this Solus... disappears... I disappear

feeling lost
feeling forgotten
feeling empty... without you

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when life has slipped behind this isolation
cruelty & hatred have become
the cause of those whose eyes are full of wanting
the truth will still abandon none...
so you must carry this light into the darkness
you shall be a star unto the night
you will find hope alive among the hopeless
that is your purpose to this life

the lips draw words
and hands find actions
still there is more within one heart
and to the silence, will you answer?
before the chaos, will you come?

Do not injustice to another
defend the weak & innocent
may truth & honor always guide you
let courage find a life within
Stand up when no one else is willing
act not in anger or in spite
be to this world as a perfect knight
even if it means your life...

here I am,
alive among the injured and the dead
here I am
thy will be done
sancta Sophia
peace is born to your victory
Athena Sophia
how can I hope to live... what I cannot dream?

you cannot map the ways of divinity......
This much is known...
only unto God

and through these doubts
and through your confusion
know that you are chosen to this fight
look to find a soul filled with compassion
look to see see a living source of light

Do not injustice to another
defend the weak & innocent
let truth & honor always guide you
let courage find a life within
Stand up when no one else is willing
act not in hatred or in spite
be to this world as a perfect knight
even if it means your life...

here I am,
alive among the injured and the dead
here I am
thy will be done
sancta Sophia
peace is born to your victory
Athena Sophia
How can I hope to be... what I can't believe...

The human animal is a beautiful and terrible creature,
capable of limitless compassion and unfathomable cruelty.
If you wish to find that which becomes the dividing line between
mankind and other biological classifications, it rests not in
brain size, dominance, or even emotional capability. It lies within
the innate capacity for human beings to reflect on their actions,
and show regret. It is most certainly the ability to empathize that gives
them their position. All mammals understand love and affection, but
only man shows a propensity to place himself into the shoes of
another life-form. Losing this capability, among individuals of the species,
reduces them below their much heralded position,
and readies the climate for the likely fall of man.
A fall from grace.

Do not injustice to another
defend the weak & innocent
let truth & honor always guide you
let courage find a life within
Stand up when no one else is willing
act not in hatred or in spite
be to this world as a perfect knight
even if it means your life...

here I am,
alive among the injured and the dead
here I am
thy will be done
sancta Sophia
peace is born to your victory
Athena Sophia
how can I hope to find what I cannot see?
here I am,
alive among the injured and the dead
here I am
thy will be done
sancta Sophia
peace is born to your victory
Hagia Sophia
How can I hope be, what's inside of me?

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down on the other side of things
the triggers fast and light

bringing home this emptiness
for which you had to fight
it doesn't matter if you're giving
for they do not compromise
the world will keep you guessing
until the day you die

and everyone will say "I told you so"
yeah they'll all just nod and sigh

but I'll make a run at something real
and they'll never even try
and everyone will say "I told you so"
yeah they'll all just nod and sigh
as I go down in a ball of flames
they'll just watch, i wonder why

When the people downtown are freezing
sometimes you cannot hide

so what can you do it's often true
then we shift away our eyes
but maybe that moments ours to live
and maybe that's what we we're for
as fate will share a chance with you
to open up your door

I don't understand
why you're just standing there

I don't understand
why you don't seem to care


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So I am lost
And I am found
With contradictions
I can't resolve
So many paths
So many doorways to the truth
And when I dream
I know her face
But the mist obscures my way

Reaching out to wipe these tearful eyes
once more

And here we go
Around and around
A bitter struggle plays out beneath my smile
And here we go
Around and around
don't fall, don't fall for me


And with this sword
A raging fire
Carried by my soul's desire
And visions of a world
Inscribed to breathe

I do not feel
tell me what's wrong with me


A dream of silver swans
Lying in the dark
Lost in separation
They follow me home
A dream of silver swans
Swimming in my mind
Filled with isolation
They follow me home


And when we touch
The shadows flee
With clues submerged in mystery
The physics of this second sight
Has lead me here


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I'm not asking for favors
not tonight
I look up in the sky...
all the rockets fall down (fall down)
too many promises
too many lies

too many faces for me to know

Sometimes I sit among the markers
and contemplate my next life
says something less sympathetic-
"a little more unconditional respect was buried
here"

"But it never lived
and it never died

it never came from them
it was always inside..."

I don't care if time just passes us by
I can stand the change...
but not the cruelty
too many promises
too many lies
too many faces for me to know


Sometimes I sit among the markers
and contemplate my next life
says something less sympathetic-
"a little more unconditional respect was buried
here"

"But it never lived
and it never died
it never came from them

it was always inside..."

(spoken Spirits of the Dead by E.A. Poe - 1827)


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Reaching out in deadened night,
Emptiness by candlelight,
Memory a haunted sea,
Souring in sudden rage,
The damage plagued upon my love,
Driven by this selfish urge,
To separate yourself from me,
But not the way you planned,


The gambit flow of shifting thought,
Shall ride a kiss upon my cross,
And with each moment of despair,
Lay to heart a lovely tear.
Within each bulb the salty sea,
Swims an ocean silently,
Swims the forest of my dreams,
Swims the essence of my being (...I call me)


Come ringing back now,
(can't explain),
The measures swept away in pain,
Hatred, will I escape your grasp,
Buried feelings let me pass.
I cannot kill this final flame,
The fire that once consumed my heart,
But Hope must have some kind of fuel,

And chance must keep this fire.

reduced to ashes, We run colder on the outside. A Spartan hope that dwindles near the source
of this contempt. What has my hopeful certainty for the future returned upon my desperation
and difficult memory, besides wasted moments, whose questions are not resolved? Simple things
went un-addressed, until such time as they could only pass away. Losing you shall (forever
mark my breast. Injury knows no justice.)


Swimming out the tears in my eyes
Looking for the shore,
I hope that this is the last time...
I hope that this is the last time...


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If your love is marred by anger
perhaps it wears a mask
and underneath those hollow eyes
a prisoner is cast

but grief will buy you nothing
and pity a little less
open up the cage you carry and release yourself from this

once we have a promise
twice we have a curse
three times is impossible
and four times even worse
once we have an accident

twice we have a fault
three times is delinquent
and four times is the fall

I will stay here
if you believe
I will remain
if you believe

If time and tide refuse to wait

remind them who they are
each second drained from the hour-glass
is born a distant star
and sorrow is not reaching out
it's only lying in your heart
so if you're sailing in unhappy seas
bid the storms depart

when I sleep I dream in billions of colors...

billions of colors, am I not real?

If time and tide refuse to wait
remind them who they are
each second drained from the hour-glass
is born a distant star

when birds are bent in windy skies
the foolish ones will land
live each moment with a savored taste

look beyond the mind of man
but grief will buy you nothing
and pity a little less
open up the cage you carry and release yourself from this

Is God a machine?
like you, like me,
won't you tell me please
is God a machine?

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The trial is set before us and its hard to understand,
The mechanics of this world we tread, the potential in our hands.
Truth is born in uncertain stages and in turn life will reveal-
That though we stand before the crown the future is concealed.

So we must move to face our enemies, and to each of us- his own.
Perspectives change across the board as the last among us knows.
And I am proud of what I've sacrificed and I am proud of what I've saved,
in commitment to a greater good strength grows from splintered faith.

And if the darkness falls upon me in the silence of my heart,
and if the world turns to abandon, I will not fall apart.
For I believe in something deeper than the physics that we share...
and I will strive with all my power, to reach the 8th & final square.

For in every evil, and every loss a finer verity unfolds;
you are free to face this trepidation and with your weakness grow.
For the strongest bones are broken and the soul needs to redeem,
With courage face the thing you fear, so the pawn becomes the queen.

I go inside the darkness, I go within the light.
I find the open spaces, my world is black and white.

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Dear Angel,

Where are your warming wings tonight?
It's so cold outside won't you hold me for a while?

And Angel,
I feel alone and unalive
The night is frozen and these tears have stung my eyes

Dreams may pass and dreams may fade
Nothing I love will stay the same
Nothing ever stays the same


So Angel,
I feel so numb and so far away
I can see myself on the pavement where I lay

Oh Angel,
Why do I stare so? What do I see?
Why do these lifeless eyes look that way back at me?

Dreams may pass and dreams may fade

Nothing I love will stay the same
Nothing under heaven stays the same

Dreams may pass and dreams may fade
Nothing I love will stay the same
Nothing ever stays the same

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"I walk alone at night,
raindrops and streetlights
reflecting flashes

across the asphalt

in a second's time, I might refrain from breathing
with her hand in mine, something is breaking faster
through a blackened sky, I see a world unravel
I look into her eyes to see the end
in a second's time, the walls swim cold electric

with a tearful smile, she whispers my undoing
in the hollow night, I find no trace of comfort
I turn just in time to see the end

I walk the edge

standing on the velvet edge

looking backwards in the rain
I wonder just how many times
I've watched you walk away
all that fascination bleeds -
is a piece of infinity
in frustration still believing

what I know will never be

blurry eyes growing weak
fading with the light of time
piercing nothing to redeem
the emptiness with lies
pride has raped the sorrowed heart

and stolen what I love,
though the cut is digging still
how much deeper it could go...

Why did you come here,
just to break my heart again?
I walk the edge ------

Why did you come here,
just to sever my last remaining thread -
Why did you come here
just to watch me fall again?
I walk the edge ------
Why did you come here....?

I walk the edge..."


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My body's made of fire
Black and deep and cold
Burning for the choice I made
So many years ago


And love will keep me tethered
For my wings are stripped of flight
But into my mad deluded world
They cross the battle lines

Into their end

One dream of God
One dream of less

One dream of strength and cowardice
With the rage of the seraphs at my side

One dream of man
One dream of hate
One dream of love
One dream of hate
With the rage of the seraphs at my side

The punishments I carry now

Are of my own design
For once I brought the hand of God
And now this gift is mine



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a soul of pure mechanics
a sentinel to this edge
battle bruised and filled with holes
last living to protect...
burning chrome and steel becomes
something more alive
that to destruction so consigned
believing will survive

look up now child
to the sky
and hear the titans
fearless cry
for you, these mortals
now become
an offering to life

and all the men
who will not die
even though
they give there lives
return to us
and in our hearts and minds-
as heroes... will survive